Teatopia

Change

Usually when I blog, I'll try not to talk about depressing things, but today was a sad day for me. Today was my last day of student teaching and it was so hard to say goodbye. I have been teaching these 8th graders since January and this was my last day with them. It was also hard to say goodbye to my mentor-- one of the most amazing women I know. They gave me a beautiful gift-- a Nine West watch. There was also a cake and many cards. The messages from the kids touched my heart. One girl told me that I've been like a mother to her because she was taken away from her own mom. Probably the hardest person to say goodbye to was Cathy, my mentor and cooperating teacher. We cried as we said goodbye and she said I've been like a daughter to her. It seems silly to be so upset when I'll almost definitely be teaching there next year, but things won't be the same. I've always hated change. Never again will things be as they are right now. I know I had to complete student teaching to graduate and I will have my very own class of kids to bond with next year, but next Monday won't seem right.

I told myself I wouldn't cry, but I did. I knew I would. And then I drove away from the school, tears running down my face, it began to rain. How perfect. I decided there was only one thing to keep me from going nuts, a project! So I drove to Michaels and decided I wasn't in a crafty mood, so I bought a new painting for my living room and then went to buy a lamp. Tonight I'm going to buy pillows for my couch. I called my husband at work and told him that I was sad and needed to re-do the living room. He understood and said to get what I wanted. He's taking me out tonight to "celebrate" but I don't feel like this is a happy time. I miss everyone at school.

I have successfully completed student teaching with a perfect evaluation, I'm graduating, and I'm going to Korea in 2 weeks. Why do I feel so crappy?