I have felt stressed over the last week. The school year is coming to an end and things are hectic and I haven't seen James much recently and I guess my life is kind of out of balance. Some people at school are leaving, positions are shifting, and there's a chance I might get moved around a bit, but I don't want to say anything prematurely. My friend Rebecca and I were interested possibly in the same position and it was akward and I was so worried she was upset that I laid awake obsessing about it and feeling guilty until 5:30 am. We're talking totally awake-- I didn't even dose. It was the most frusterating feeling and then I felt like a nutcase for worrying so much. It's in my nature. If something it bothering me, I won't sleep until I feel some peace about it. I can't believe I am still up after an hour and a half of sleep.
When I got home tonight after class, James came home briefly for dinner and then I ran a hot bubble bath, grabbed this month's "Gourmet Magazine", made some tea, and tried to relax. By the way, I am in love with Aveda's tea, which I am off to post about on the teaswap blog.
Posted by Hannah at May 2, 2005 09:44 PMI am totally like that when it comes to stressing about something. I obsess and can't sleep and generally drive myself (and everyone around me) crazy! I try to do something relaxing but it seems more stressful because I CAN'T stop obsessing. And then the problem gets resolved and I feel like an idiot for having been so stressed! *hugs* to you! :)
Posted by: Robin at May 2, 2005 10:34 PMOkay and I just said that you are relaxed - foot in mouth. When something bothers me I write about it and then I plan what I will do in different scenarios, yes I am a control freak and doing that gives me some imagined measure of control. I am sending you loads of ((((hugs)))!!
Posted by: Pixy at May 3, 2005 01:57 AMHey what position are you going for?
Posted by: Valkyrie at May 3, 2005 06:54 AMTry to take it all in stride, Hannah, don't get too stressed about it. Cross the bridge when you get to it....it'll be alright.
Posted by: stef at May 3, 2005 11:38 AMSending hugs your way.
Posted by: ani at May 3, 2005 12:16 PMHannah, Happy Teacher's Day!!!!
Posted by: Penny at May 3, 2005 01:02 PM