Lately I feel so restless and bored. I can barely find the time to lay down and relax, but when I finally do, I just feel frustrated. I think it's because everything I do lately is for work (meeting, classes for additional certification, etc) and I just don't seem to have the energy to do the things I used to love in my free time: cooking (but I did make homemade spaghetti and meat sauce tonight), reading, crafting, going for coffee (which I can't have) and other things I'm too tired to think of. I feel like I've already lost a part of myself. All my lazy ass does it watch tv, and I am having difficulty finding shows that interest me. I'm just so picky lately. I am trying to relax, but I just get bored and I'm mad at myself for not doing the things I loved just 3 months ago. I haven't even started scrapbooking our trip to Africa. I am too worn out to enjoy looking at baby stuff, which I obsessively did the first few weeks I was pregnant.
I am even having trouble thinking of what to blog, which has NEVER happened before. Am I getting boring? Am I boring you kind internet folks? I have like 1 comment on the last entry (thanks, Lisanne). I mean seriously, who wants to hear about my breast feeding dreams? I am even boring myself.
Oh, and would you nice people like to contribute to my spa fund??? Pretty please? I'm kidding, but I really am thinking of splurging on a massage and pedicure. I know it'd make me feel better! I've never had a real massage.
Posted by Hannah at September 21, 2005 07:51 PMDon't fret about it - the lack of energy is normal. Everybody's different, but I found that once I hit my second trimester, I had the energy (both physical and mental) to focus on doing things I hadn't done for several months.
Remember, when you're watching tv, you're not just watching tv - you're also growing a baby.
I had the same experience - restless, bored, annoyed during my first trimester, then an INCREDIBLE burst of energy through the second trimester! Just relax and enjoy the time as much as you can knowing that even in your sleep your body is working so hard!
Posted by: amelia at September 21, 2005 11:24 PMyour body is going through a big change, i am sure that emotional change and preferences are just a result of it and most probably temporary. you are definitely not boring - why would you say that?!?! i am checking your blog a few times a day just to see how you are keeping :)
take care, don't be too hard on yourself during this time of great happy change.
Posted by: stef at September 22, 2005 12:26 AMmaybe it's all the raging hormones..never fear..there's plenty of movies coming back for the fall season this week..woohoo!
Posted by: letti at September 22, 2005 03:11 AMNew reader here...and intrigued! I love to hear about your day, boring or not!
Plus, if youre trying to watch some of the "new" shows that are out there, most of them suck so far (EXCEPT MARTHA OF COURSE!)...
Posted by: dazed at September 22, 2005 09:03 AMI don't think you are boring, but I can understand the spell you are going through. I have bouts where I think my life is boring, too, and that no one really cares to hear about my daily inane "adventures".
It may not seem fun and exciting to sit around and watch TV right now when you feel that you have loads to do (boy, do I know how that is...and I've never been pregnant) but soon you are going to be thankful that you rested when you could. Hang in there!
Posted by: Christina at September 22, 2005 09:51 AMHannah, you are *never* boring! I always LOVE reading your blog and seeing what you're up to [and of course hearing pregnancy updates!]. :) You can have decaffeinated coffee, right? Or does the smell/taste of it turn you off? The first trimester is filled with LOTS of challenges ... I was absolutely *exhausted* and felt restless, too. I wanted to do SO many things [cleaning, projects, crafts, etc.], but I just didn't feel up to it most of the time. And that was hard for me ... usually I'm always out and about doing things [type A personality, LOL!]. But during my second and third trimesters, I felt awesome!!! I got energy back and really felt productive. Hopefully it'll be the same way for you, too! Hang in there!
Posted by: Lisanne at September 22, 2005 04:19 PMTake it easy on yourself. Your body is going through some BIG changes right now. The rest of you will catch up.
Posted by: Elaine at September 22, 2005 09:59 PM