Today I didn't do much but feel sorry for myself and it's not just my hormones . . . I spent some time crying because I feel *so* alone right now. I miss my friends in Maryland. And out of the friends I have here, none of them have kids. In fact, my closest friends are pretty much single. I want a friend to go baby clothes shopping with. None of them are interested in the baby thing. It's so far from where they are in their lives. They go to clubs and stay out late. I had lunch with my friend B today. I talked about baby stuff and he talked about the gay club in Atlanta he went to last night. So not on the same page. I'll be "that friend who has the baby" soon and it's not like I have friends with kids to hang out with more after babykins arrives. I'll be even lonelier. If you recall this post, I felt alone during the last most significant time in my life and now it's happening again.
Then I went to try on maternity clothes and I looked just plain fat. No adorable, rounded pregnant belly, nope. Just fat. My stomach is even sticking out (water retention?) You would never guess I was pregnant if you saw me on the streets. I look like someone who ate too many donuts.
Posted by Hannah at October 8, 2005 09:52 PMHUGS to you! I'm almost 26 weeks pregnant and I still think I only look fat and not pregnant! Soon you'll have that lovely glowing belly though and you'll look just great.
About the friends. It is tough. When we had our first son, our friends were either single or childless as well. We had to make new friends. It took a long time and most of my friends I met at the boy's preschool. Who knows, you might meet your best friend at childbirth classes!
Posted by: Melany at October 9, 2005 09:08 AMMaybe there are some new moms groups meeting in your area? I understand how hard it is to meet people. Not that we have a baby but we are married and it seems like everyone my age (26) is still single and dating and every one Matt's age (33) is on their first (or second kid). It's hard to make friends at either end of the spectrum.
Posted by: rachel at October 9, 2005 10:44 AMI am sure you look pregnant and your single friends still want to be friends with you and you both are trying to find a balance. Rachel is right try to find a mom's group in the area. Good luck!
Posted by: Ani at October 9, 2005 11:13 AMYou will look pregnant soon enough. And don't worry about not having many friends, you have me. I will go shopping with you. And although I have no advise because, oh wait, I dont have kids either, it will still be fun to talk about the what ifs. Atleast you have James. Even though he is busy with work you know he loves you. This holiday season is going to suck for me, I get to spend it alone :(
Posted by: meggie at October 9, 2005 02:33 PMHannah, I would *so* love going baby shopping with you if we lived closer!!! I'm sorry that you're feeling lonely. It's not too early to start going to a moms' group ~ I LOVE mine. Yeah, at 24 most of my friends were still into the "bar scene." That has to be hard. You DEFINITELY will look pregnant soon ... just hang in there! I was like you, I *so* wanted that big pregnant tummy. :)
Posted by: Lisanne at October 9, 2005 04:14 PMAt 27, most of my friends still don't have kids.
So I can imagine friends your age. At least you got your mom and sis with you. My families are in california. :(
But hey...we're only one hour apart. Let's go baby shopping together. :D Uhmm...but i guess i need to go maternity clothes shopping first. My pants don't fit me anymore. Lets schedule a date, Hannah! :) let me know,k!
I do wished we lived closer Hannah! (((hugs))) I know we are in the same state but we are still pretty far from one another. Maybe we can plan a meet up or something in between? What do ya say? It would be fun to shop with you :) And I have a girl who is 8.
Posted by: Amanda at October 10, 2005 10:53 AMJust wanted to say, I was exactly like your engagement/wedding post. I had a very difficult engagement. And everything else, the same. Now that we're married, it feels like we have nothing in common with anybody. Our single friends just aren't real keen on "married people", and anybody who is married is either 25 years older, they have 3 kids, or they're just plain bitter about life and try to make us miserable, too.
*hugs*
Posted by: Laura at October 10, 2005 11:36 AMI emailed you :) a nice long baby email from a fellow fattie.
Posted by: girl from florida at October 10, 2005 01:37 PMHey sweetie, I so feel for you. I am packing up and again leaving all those near and dear to me. I've been in tears for weeks now. I keep thinking they have stopped and they have for the most part, but do they really ever?
Posted by: Pink Sun Drops at October 11, 2005 01:05 AM