Tonight I am feeling kind of frustrated. My grandma, after having her knee replacement put back in last Thursday, had to have yet another surgery today because her knee was bleeding pretty badly. They didn't find the cause, but they said they normally don't. Now they're just going to watch it to see if the bleeding stops. I feel so badly for her. It's hard to keep going to the hospital all the time and visiting her when I am so tired. It's also hard that everyone else is so busy with her because I kind of feel left out, even though I shouldn't. This is such a special time for me and my family is so pre-occupied. We weren't even sure my mom could come to my first ultrasound this week because she had to transfer my grandma to a recovery place. Thankfully, a dear family friend said she'd be happy to do it so my mom can go see her first grandbaby's ultrasound. I have been stressed worrying over my grandma and I am exhausted from working, taking classes, visiting her, and feeling generally tired.
I also am feeling fat. The only time I even look a little pregnant is when I have eaten and my tummy sticks out. Other than that, my lower abdomen sticks out a bit and I can feel my uterus when I press on my tummy. I am so bloated and my tummy (actual stomach) is too fat.
Yet, I have so much to be happy about. I am crazy excited about my ultrasound Thursday, even though I'm a bit nervous, yet I am dwelling on the negative. Someone talk me out of this, pretty please?
Posted by Hannah at October 24, 2005 07:49 PMI hope you are feeling ok Hannah. Dont worry about the baby, i know that he/she will be all good. i cant wait to read about it. :*)
Posted by: feli at October 24, 2005 09:35 PMIt's 1oPM, you must be up. I just saw your comment in my entry. :)
Does James have sympathy symptoms? I think chris does; he's getting kinda chubby aka fat, and he goes to bed early.
I still don't know if my dad is excited, they are too far away. now that my SIL is pregger too, i have to share my mom's attention. not fair :)
We'll be fine. We'll get thru this. :)
Awwww sweetie, it's totally understandable you're feeling this way! You are under SO much stress now, and adding in your grandmothers situation is so tough. If it makes you feel any better, I've been kind of slacking on being a good grandaughter to my grandmother too. It's tough. My mom didn't come to my first u/s because she was taking my little sister to school- her priority sometimes. :( At least my hubby was there! That's all I cared about :)
Only 2 more days and you'll get to see your baby! I can't wait to hear about it!!!!! Drink a warm cup of tea, honey, and relax and remember how happy you are to have the little person growing inside you.
Posted by: girl from florida at October 25, 2005 09:03 AMi agree with gff. you've got so much added stress on you right now, but the baby's going to be fine! i can't wait to hear about the ultrasound!
Posted by: cady at October 25, 2005 09:56 AMHUGS to you. I'm sorry that this is happening, during such a special time in your life. I"m thinking of your Gran and hope she makes a full recovery.
Good luck with the ultrasound on Thursday :) I'm sure it will be just fine
Posted by: Melany at October 25, 2005 10:46 AMI'm sorry your feeling so uncomfortable! That is probably the worst part about being uncomfortable! In all your pictures you don't look fat at all, just think though, in a few months you'll have the sweetest baby in the world in your arms and it will ALL be worth it! *hugs* The picture you put up in the corner is a really good picture too! I like it! =)
Posted by: Shelby at October 25, 2005 05:34 PMI mean to say..."worst part about being pregnant."
Posted by: Shelby at October 25, 2005 05:36 PMYou will do find, dear Hannah, and you will witness a most wonderful thing in 2 days. It must be hard to have to deal with so many things at once...just take one step at a time and keep moving forward. Enjoy the pregnancy - it's amazing how women can cope despite all the raging hormones in our bodies when we are in that state. Think happy thoughts.
Posted by: stef at October 25, 2005 06:08 PMAaay I am sorry about your grandma. I hope she is better fast. It is ok you are pregnant try to enjoy yourself and your ultrasound will be ok. It's normal to worry.
Posted by: Ani at October 26, 2005 07:09 PM