Thank you for your kind words yesterday. I had a pretty good day, but an emotional one. There were many times when I thought "this is the last time I will teach this class" or "this is the last time I will eat lunch with these people" but I was strong mostly. I started to cry as I drove away, but I didn't have any tissues with me and I made myself stop. I'm sure I'm destined to still have a good cry. All these changes have been getting to me and I've been kind of emotional lately anyway.
I can't believe that baby girl could come any day now. However, I realize it's possible that she'll take her sweet time. In some way, I want to stay pregnant for a while longer because it's safe, but I am also ready to meet her and I want my stretch marks to stop spreading and my feet to fit in my shoes! I will miss my pregnant body though. I feel so womanly and special. (How corny is that?) James seems so proud to be with me. Everyone makes comments about my tummy and asks us questions. I know he loves it too!
My mom gave me a letter about this next phase of my life, just as my grandmother gave to her before she had me. It meant so much to me. My mom keeps telling me that I won't be able to comprehend how much she loves me until I feel that amount of love for my daughter. I am so ready to feel that. Here's to the next phase!
Posted by Hannah at April 1, 2006 08:12 PMI now understand exactly what your mother means; it's amazing how you feel about your own child. I never thought about this before, but it does give a whole different perspective on how our own parents must feel about us.
Posted by: Chas at April 2, 2006 05:29 AMit will get better and you will see those peaple agine!!
Posted by: stephanie at April 2, 2006 01:15 PMI also totally understand what your mum says - and can't wait for you to feel it too! For me it's goes from like being a Momma Bear that will RIP TO SHREDS anyone who would try to hurt the bubby, to being so FULL of LOVE for him that my heart wants to burst right out of my body, with love exploding like fireworks all around me. I also felt like I wanted to keep the bubby inside where it was safe - but be able to take him out as well so I could get comfortable again!
Posted by: Valkyrie at April 2, 2006 01:48 PMI *seriously* can't believe that your little girl is almost here!!! I've enjoyed following your pregnancy. How *sweet* of your mom to write you a letter! I feel even *closer* to my mom now that I'm a mom, too, and it's an incredible feeling. I'm so excited for you! :)
Posted by: Lisanne at April 3, 2006 08:36 PM