This afternoon, James e-mailed me and told me he appreciates the sacrifices I'm making. It made me feel better, because I have made sacrifices. We both have. Tonight, James and I went out with friends for Rebecca's birthday and Olivia stayed with my mom. It was nice to have adult conversation. In my excitement over having a grown-ups night out, I wore a cocktail dress and let my hair dry curly, and shoes I could barely walk in. So totally worth it. I also felt wistful as I sat among my friends from last year, knowing that we are all at different schools now and that things will never be the same. Life is funny that way.
Tomorrow, I am meeting Rebecca for coffee, and heading to the gym while my mom watches Olivia. James is finishing up the landscaping, which means I can start planting flowers and things soon because of course, we have a few months before the cold starts. Then tomorrow night, it's off to a party hosted by friends at church in honor of Olivia and another baby born. Yipppeee!
What a difference time can make. I still have a bit of the baby blues, but I have the support of a man I love and a daughter with the most beautiful smile in the world.
Posted by Hannah at August 25, 2006 11:40 PMGlad things are looking up! I read a book a few years ago that talked about how we don't recognize the endings in our life as much as we should. We get excited about changes like getting married and having a baby and all the newness and joy that brings. But there is still sadness, as you're experiencing, with some of the 'endings' that new things bring. You've had a lot of changes over the last year. It's normal to feel the way you're feeling and it's ok to let yourself recognize and explore those feelings. (The book is Transitions by William Bridges.)
Posted by: Jennie at August 26, 2006 08:25 AMYAY!!! I commented on your other post last night but couldn't see it this morning for some reason. It's nice to see that so many other mommies go through this!
I really wish we lived closer- I'd love to hang out and cheer you up! You could teach me some recipes and I could teach you... um... shopping? Respiratory physiology! Or we could work out together. I have this strange... extra skin problem. Hee! In october, YEAH!!
Posted by: girl from florida at August 26, 2006 10:18 AMSo glad you sound like you're feeling better. I love to plant flowers. Have fun!
Posted by: Amy at August 26, 2006 12:08 PMI'm glad he understood where you are coming from. HUGS to you. It's great that you got to dress up and go out some too. You needed that
Posted by: Melany aka Supermom at August 27, 2006 08:51 AMTime really helps with everything! So glad for you!
Posted by: Ani at August 28, 2006 03:58 PM