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Did I speak too soon?

Last night, as I was putting Olivia to bed, she asked for "boof". She's mentioned it a few times in the last week, but either forgot or got distracted before I could nurse her. Last night though, she was insistent and started to cry, so I nursed her. She didn't nurse long, but then this morning, she wanted it again.

So...

now I'm confused. I don't want to refuse her and MAKE her stop. Part of me was so relieved. I couldn't help but cry as I watched her nurse. I kept thinking, "hooray! She hasn't weaned yet" but then also, there was a sense of dread because I'd sort of accepted that we were done, and now, I'll have to go through the sad feelings all over again.

The fact that she went several days without nursing tells me that weaning is just around the corner. I guess I'll let her nurse when she wants since it isn't often, and I assume that soon, she'll either completely stop, or there won't be enough milk to keep her interested.

Please pray that I am able to discern whether or not it's time to wean. Part me thinks I shouldn't nurse her when she asks since I was coming to terms with weaning, but another stronger part of me says that she'll wean soon anyway, and I should enjoy the few precious times we have left.

I already told James that the next time she asks (assuming there's a next time), I want him to take pictures. I could tell he thought it was odd, but I don't care. I want a visual memory of our nursing relationship.

Posted by Hannah at November 2, 2007 05:21 PM